
I think it’s a good thing that Earth Day falls hard on the heels of April 15th in this country. Like it or not, that paper trail left by months and months (and months and months) of spending affords one a stark look at one’s true politics.
And enlightenment is rarely pleasant. I still remember culling my old, big-time-ad-gal tax returns a few years after I’d left the corporate world. I was by turns mystified and horrified at the profligate spending I managed to justify while high on the Korporate Kool-Aid. I spent how much on dinner…how many nights in a row? Or worse, I gave how little away? Clearly, I am the Asshole of the Universe.
My life is much, much simpler now, but I’m also more awake. (Old people sleep less, you know.) Of course, the more veils lifted from your eyes, the more unavoidable what still needs to be done: the blessing/curse of awareness. There’s no turning back, only a weird, muddly phase of running in circles, scratching one’s head, figuring out what happens next.
So here are my observations, along with some figuring (I’ll spare you the annoying scratching that came in between). Nothing’s written in stone: I’m sure more hindsight will point out additional follies and better/stronger/faster opportunities for growth, but it’s a start, anyway…
PROBLEM #1. I use way too much gas.
My 2004 Corolla supposedly gets 35 MPG (32 city, 40 highway). Not as bad as SUV Nation, not as good as electric or hybrid. Declining auditions (boo hoo!) and increased work from home (yay!) have gotten my annual mileage down to around 7,000, but The BF drives us around a lot, so I probably still burn up at least 10K miles’ worth of fossil fuel: too, too much.
Alas, L.A. is not a walking city. When I can, I run errands in nearby Larchmont (or in Silver Lake when I’m staying at My Country House). But I can’t hoof the 10, 20, 50 blocks I used to clock in New York and Chicago because more often than not, my destinations are even farther than that, and public transportation is too slow since the buses (and connecting buses) are caught in the same heinous snarl.
If I were more alert and my fellow Angelenos more considerate, I’d buy a (used) bike and cycle more often. As it is, I get a little nervous just crossing the street. Too many people (especially those from SUV Nation—you know who you are, motherfuckers) blowing through too many red lights.
SOLUTION: Honestly? While co-habitation would shave 40 or so miles off of my weekly log, I think the only way to substantially improve my ecological footprint in this quadrant is to move to a smaller/more navigable burg where I can bike and/or walk and or take public transportation more readily. I’m down with that, although I still have to get The BF on board. (To be fair, if I lived in My Country House, I’d probably find L.A. more liveable, too.)
PROBLEM #2: I spend way too much on television.
This isn’t as obvious a “green” issue as burning up petroleum, but there are larger ecological implications to turning over such a substantial portion of my time and entertainment dollar (over $90/month) to canned, passive entertainment. I’m not supporting my local community of artists; I am helping corporate America (and, by extension, all the thoughtless waste and consumption it promotes) to maintain its stranglehold on the world.
On the other hand, it’s the best way I know to stay plugged into what mainstream America is doing and thinking. That, and The Sopranos fucking rocks.
SOLUTION: Get rid of one of my cable boxes and dump the premium channels. (After Sopranos is over, of course.) Or figure out an exact thing I could treat myself to with that money which would help me to create, rather than mindlessly consume.
PROBLEM #3: I spend way too much to be fit (especially since I’m not).
Three years ago, I got an incredible deal on my local Gold’s Gym. But even at the low, low price of $120/year for my membership, it costs me 60 bucks per workout. Plus I have to drive there. Plus gyms suck major heinie.
SOLUTION: Give myself until renewal to go. If I don’t, quit and use free weights at home. And walk more. (See #1.) $120 is $120. Don’t flush money down the toilet! Untreated money is bad for the metropolitan water supply!
PROBLEM #4: I spend way too much on groceries.
This one is a little tougher. Since I make virtually all of my own food from scratch, and since my gut is kind of delicate, I spend more both to get quality ingredients and to find things that are appetizing. Believe me, before I got sick with Crohn’s, I was dandy-fine with living a tiny-footprint life on brown rice, vegetables and tofu (with the occasional Filet-O-Fish Extra Value Meal and salt-n-vinegar potato chip binge for variety)—provided, of course, there was booze, and GOOD booze, at that. (Really—what’s the point of drinking shitty liquor? If you need to pass out that badly, hit yourself on the head with a hammer and be done with it.)
When I’m in a flare, I also have a hard time determining what I’ll be able to eat. I was doing fine on almost-normal people food when, a few days ago, I fell off the SCD wagon and stuffed my face with three three THREE pieces of bread. Now I’m back to Baby Tummy (sucks) and with a fridge full of undigestible matter like salad, strawberries and members of the onion family.
Besides, making a smaller impact on the earth will probably entail spending a little more for products from sustainable growers. So my food expenditures will likely rise if I start taking all this peak oil stuff seriously.
SOLUTION: Spend more on what I have to, and get back in the habit of going to my local Sunday Farmer’s Market.
After all, it’s within walking distance…
xxx
c

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I’m with you on almost all those problems. So don’t feel bad, we are all trying to learn what works best for us and the enviroment around us.
Definitely with you on the bike/safety issue. When Keith first moved in with me, we shared my (now 17-year-old) car and that meant, anytime I needed the TicTac, he was on his bike.
Until he got hit by an Escalade while IN THE FREAKIN’ BIKE LANE on Santa Monica Blvd. over near La Cienega. The guy was just turning into a driveway without, y’know, merging into the bike lane first, and just flattened Keith.
After we paid off his hospital bills, we bought him a very old well-used car.
Hated to do it to the planet, but people are NOT RIGHT about driving in this town, especially where pedestrians and cyclists are concerned.
Um, BTW, next week is Adbusters’ TV Turn Off Week.
I find ironic the recurring theme of “reformed” corporate people bemoaning the evils of the corporate world while they leave it with enough spoils to fund their born again social consciousness by shopping at upscale grocery stores, and living a life closer to nature (by having a second home in the country). But you’re worried about wasting $120 a year on a gym membership…
Dawn—I feel better knowing there are other people out there grappling with whatever. One of the reasons I love the interweb—it’s so much easier to find each other.
Bon—Of course an Escalade. Of course…
rattus—Thanks! You’ve inspired me (more to come).
andy—Cheer up, toots! I used to find lots of things ironic; now I mostly just find things amusing. Much more fun.
I have all these problems (I mean, these four problems, I’m not using my first comment on your blog as a platform to talk about my problems). #1 I am curing by quitting my job (!) which will in effect help #4 (because um, what money?) and my gym is $55 a month (yikes!) and I haven’t gone in two weeks cause I’ve been sick (-$22.50) but I do, I swear I go at least twice a week (=$7/visit).
But you can totally rationalize #2. I mean HBO shows The Day After Tomorrow like, all the time.
This is so totally off topic, but I had so much fun at the Strip the other night, and you were great, and I’m sorry I had to run so quickly after meeting the BF, because he seems like an amazing guy and I wanted to bask in his amazingness and chat much, much longer–but I had to give someone a ride who was waiting for me, and blah, blah, blah, I will be back at the Strip. Oh, and I spend WAY too much (I mean WAY TOO MUCH) on gas. I don’t think a bike is a viable option considering the commutes I make. I wish I had a Prius. When I go to bed at night, I think that a Prius would be the answer to all of my problems.
Oh, also, when I saw you at the Strip (IRL) I meant to tell you (in case I haven’t already–and I don’t think I have) how much I love your new blog design. Kudos! It’s great–and I LOVE your eyes at the top of the page, it’s good good good.
It’s interesting to think of your own actions in a larger context and I agree with you, the gym is boring. One thing that worked for me, find a sport or activity you enjoy and actively pursue it.
$22.50 is really not half of $55. Not really at all.
OMG, KiKi… you met the BF IRL?!? So cool!
it WAS cool!
Yo, san andreas (that’s a fault, isn’t it?)
“I find ironic the recurring theme of “reformed” corporate people bemoaning the evils of the corporate world while they leave it with enough spoils to fund their born again social consciousness by shopping at upscale grocery stores”
When you complain about someone shopping in an upscale grocery store, I can only assume that you’re employing the rhetorical device of, um, missing the point.
I don’t have any corporate spoils and I wonder where the communicatrix hides hers – because she’s the one trying to get me to stand in line at the union busting Ralph’s or Von’s, whereas I’m the one coercing her to go to Whole Paycheck or TJ’s or Gelson’s (all within walking distance, by the way). I grew up on a farm near a college town where GE dumped PCBs directly into the water supply (gee…no, GE) and we used a spectrum of pesticides, fertilizers, and antibiotics for the crops and animals (one of which was actually called Spectrum Herbicide) and the run-off from this chemical cocktail helped contribute to the general poisoning of the planet.
So I’m ok with paying a few bucks more for cage-free organic chicken, and I actually think it’s a good thing that my bag-boy makes a living wage.
Unfortunately, I’m just one guy, and for every tree-hugging fag like me there’s a bajillion Fox News watching SUV drivers in suburbia, quite happy to spew 30 tons of carbon per cap per annum, and wonder why so many of their friends and relatives are contracting cancer and other environmentally linked illnesses.
“…and living a life closer to nature (by having a second home in the country)” -dude, you’ve never been to silverlake, have you?
And to all the other commenters that are drooling for a Prius, personally, I think the technology is a kludge, and a pure electric car is the way to go – but marketing prevents that option from being available. In the meantime, if you’re serious about the Prius, check out the plug-in hybrid option available from: http://www.edrivesystems.com
Finally, the bulk of the problems worrying the communicatrix can be sblamed on the following:
why things went to hell
damn, proselytizing makes me hungry.
christy—if you give me a good rationalization for watching tv, let alone paying for it, you can have the baddest math and use the comments for whatever the hell you want. Welcome, and mmmmmwah!!!!
erik von Kiki McLongpost de la nieves brow—You will have to meet the BF in a more leisurely fashion soon. And never apologize for carpooling. Carpooling is kewl!
Dave—that is a great idea. Unfortunately, I hate all sports. I do, however, like fucking around in the yard, and the BF has one at My Country House. This could be a win-win situation! Only I’ll bet you burn off more calories fucking in the yard than with the yard.
Bon/Erik/Christy, the Collective—do you guys sleep, or what? I can barely follow the comments on my own blog, much less someone else’s. But I am way honored to have you guys clustering here.
BF—If I wasn’t completely head over heels for you already, that comment would have done it. Take your pants off—I’m heading over RIGHT NOW!
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