Oct 2, 2008

Staying Awake in Seattle, Day 6: Unsticking yourself

Like most human messes, the process of shifting from one thing to another is not linear.

Two steps forward, one step back. (Oh, wait—that’s a line.)

I want my growth to happen faster than it does, no matter how fast it happens. I want it to happen in a forward-ly direction, and only in that direction. I do not mind treading while I don’t mind treading, but when I’m ready to move, I’m ready, dammit.

If you are in the thick of it, change can be a big, sticky mess. Once you are outside of it, it may still be big, but it is also fascinating.

The older I get, the more I see the gods—you know, the Greek and Roman ones—as metaphor. They’re the part of us that sits outside of us. The part that gets to judge and pose and roll their big, fancy eyes.

What they don’t get is to play. Like we do. Like I do. Every day.

Today I got to play, and maybe didn’t own the field the way I wanted to.

Tomorrow, I get to play again.

xxx
c

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4 Comments, Comment or Ping

  1. brandon

    you are awesome.

    Oct 3rd, 2008

  2. Grant

    “I want my growth to happen faster than it does, no matter how fast it happens.”

    So true. And I want it to be pain-free and comfortable and convenient. But then I remember that probably wouldn’t be growth, would it?

    Great post.

    Oct 3rd, 2008

  3. Laura Moncur

    Well, Pan get’s to play, but he’s kind of a trickster, so watch out! :)

    Oct 3rd, 2008

  4. the communicatrix

    Brandon - No, YOU.

    Grant - Thanks. And short, even!

    Laura - Oh, that frisky Pan. He’s the Dennis the Menace of the Mt. Olympus subdivision, to be sure!

    Oct 3rd, 2008



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