Nov 1, 2010 19

Still crazy after all six years

In the six years I’ve kept at this blogging thing, there have been long, loooong stretches of daily writing. And a longer stretch of almost-daily writing. And a few obviously unlinkable stretches of almost no writing at all.

There have been, despite my certainty that there never would be, both poems and video. A little whining. A little explicating. A lot of figuring stuff out, out loud.

Some of the stuff I’ve said has wound up other places, never the stuff I thought would (which should tell you something about something), and mostly thanks to Laura.

What I’m trying to say, albeit rather clumsily, is that a lot of the time, the reason to write is just that, to write. You can write to promote yourself or write to make money or even write to find yourself but ultimately, you write to write. To be able to keep on writing. To be able to keep on getting better at writing. To be able, god willing, to write long enough that you write well enough to actually say something that will live on after you are no longer there to write.

But even if you don’t, even nobody reads your writing while you are alive and all your writing dies with you, if you are a writer (and maybe even if you are not), you are the better for having written.

Now, write.

xxx
c

Photo of me with delicious SCD-legal pie made for me by my friend, Heather, taken by my friend, Dyana.

Posted in: The Quotidian Ones

Lisa November 1, 2010 at 6:30 am

Well, thank you. Those series of anniversary posts taught me a lot I had been wanting to know. So you externalize your process. Got it. Now, do you have somewhere as similarly succinct description of what your process supports? What, just what, do you do? How do you make your living, if I can be so direct? And I ask just because I feel somehow I could benefit more from what you know, if I only knew how.

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:26 am

Thanks, Lisa. I swear, I’m not trying to obfuscate; I’m just drawn that way.

Seriously, what I am freakishly good at helping other people to do—figure out what they need to be focusing on, giving them a map and a plan, and motivating them to do it—I am, like many purveyors, abysmal at doing for myself. I am my own kryptonite or something.

I suspect it has something to do with being unable to see oneself really clearly without a good mirror. I can be that mirror for other people, but I need to find the right mirrors for myself. There are other issues, too, of course—reasons I avoid doing it. But clearly, it ain’t about laziness. We can rule that out.

As far as the *specifics* of your question—where the wherewithal comes from—right now, it mostly comes from savings, investments and a small inheritance. I have always been a squirreler-away of shiny objects, nuts and seeds against a dark time. At the end of Q4, I finally accepted that the time was not going to get much darker than this, existentially speaking, so haul out the haul and live off of it.

I have also been doing some consulting on the sly, here and there, for longtime clients, and I do a wee bit of writing for money. Like, grocery money, basically.

And then, of course, I’ve been selling my crap on eBay! :-)

Lisa November 8, 2010 at 4:38 pm

Thank you Colleen, for your honesty and for what you do here. This really helps me know how to make use of what you’re putting out there.

Angie November 1, 2010 at 7:07 am

Keep on keeping on…you can do it! And crazy is good.

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:32 am

Crazy is default; it had better be good.

Thanks, ladyfriend. The Internet brought me you, which is a VERY good thing.

Marilyn November 1, 2010 at 10:35 am

Happy Blogiversary! in this crazy time we live in…where everyone and their uncle is a social media expert…and it’s all about how to do it to GET something…thanks for reminding us that all that really matters is to just do it. xo

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:30 am

Thanks, Marilyn! I have NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER called myself a “social media expert.” And I think the very first talk I gave about warned about turning and running quickly from anyone who calls themselves that.

Because if that’s what you’re calling yourself, you are DOING IT WRONG.

Sue T November 1, 2010 at 11:47 am

“…if you are a writer (and maybe even if you are not), you are the better for having written.”

I am better for your having written, too, Colleen.
(I’m thinking of some particular posts, but even if you had left those out ….)
Thank you!

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:31 am

Thank you, Sue! I think we are all the better for pursuing our heart’s desire and getting better at what we love. Glad to be of service in my small way.

Phil Gerbyshak November 1, 2010 at 5:17 pm

6 years? Holy crap lady, that’s a LONG time! Congratulations :)

I hit my 6 year milestone in March. LOTS has changed in 6 years. But one thing hasn’t: You’re still cool and inspiring and making me think.

Wait, that’s 3 things. But who’s counting!

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:26 am

And you’re still the cheeriest guy I know. Whom I’ve now known for a loooong time—yikes! Thanks, Phil.

LN November 1, 2010 at 5:30 pm

You’ve come a loooong way, baby. You’ve allowed yourself to be much damn funnier, naturally.

THAT PIE LOOKS SCRUMPTIOUS ~
Can you link a recipe or did your pal make it up?

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:29 am

Heather (Parlato) made it up. She’s super-crafty that way. She went online read up on SCD-legal baking, and made it from bits of ribbon and string and almond flour hanging out in her cupboard. She has great recipes and stuff she links to on her blog. It’s a super-fun and inspiring read, full of great resources. A best-of the best-of in food, sustainability, design and general awesomeness.

Brooks November 1, 2010 at 5:36 pm

Thanks for the writing encouragement. It makes a difference.

Congratulations on your anniversary! Thanks for your blog. I love what you have to say.

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:33 am

Thank YOU, Brooks! You’re another thing that the Internet brought me, with an assist from the public library, of course.

See? We need it all, people—old and new.

Terri November 2, 2010 at 2:27 am

Congratulations! You continually encourage me with your writing and help me still to get through my first year of blogging. Thank you! Priceless! Best wishes for many more years of successful blogging.

the communicatrix November 5, 2010 at 8:33 am

Thanks for saying so, Terri, and congrats on making it through your first year. My little tip: years two and three were the hardest. KEEP IT UP! PUSH THROUGH! C*CKSUCKING BOULDERS, BABY!

Neil November 7, 2010 at 1:52 pm

Happy Blogging Anniversary!

heather parlato November 21, 2010 at 9:09 pm

a great reminder to write & keep writing. AND to make that pie again!

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